Serious

It's hard for me right now to feel what he feels,
I wish it was easy to be serious,
to be in that serious relationship that I think he wants,

I laugh sometimes to what he say,
I question sometimes on what he say,
What should I do?
I like him,
I don't want to lead him on,
I don't know when I will be ready,
I don't want to push him away,

I think I laugh, because I'm not really serious about anything right now,
It's hard to think or know that there is a guy like him out there.

I wish there is something that will tell me that I am ready for "The" relationship
I see him being the one... the one I am going to spend the rest of my life with